A couple months ago a friend
wrote this on a napkin for me:

Remember
You Are
Capable
Confident
Compassionate

And beautiful.

What a nice thing to hear. Even a few months later.

I’ve decided I have to find a full-time or seriously part-time job soon. This is such a weird position for me because I’ve been chasing this dream for a few years to work from home as a writer… and I think it’s over. For now.

I’m not really one to always look at the facts, but they are that I am lacking funds and motivation. I WANT to write for a living, but I need more substantial clients. I love my current clients, but they just aren’t in the market to hire me full-time.

Sometimes I feel like I’ve been doing it all wrong. But the good news is I am finally coming to grips with this reality.

Like, I think I’m at peace with letting go of trying to do this dream my way. Maybe the universe has a better plan.Three years ago I set out for the sticks of Idaho with money my pocket and a dream.

Isn’t it funny how you rarely hear about those dreams that go astray? They’ll be a mention, in a book or something of someone’s failures, but most of the story is what happens next. And in most lives, it’s not becoming rich and famous. It’s becoming extraordinary is your own way.

I guess maybe that is life. We all have failures. We can hold on to them and create misery. Or we can leave them alone. I don’t think there is a single person on the planet who hasn’t failed. It’s like the bigger the failure, the greater the life and greater the risk.

So, maybe failing big is a blessing of a life well-lived.

I think it can only be considered a sad story, if the person ceases to have a dream at all. I think we just can’t always carve the paths to our dreams. Maybe we don’t realize that our dream is what we are living right now. We just don’t have the eyes to see it.

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.
~George Bernard Shaw

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